I think I’ve figured out why Jillian and Bob, the ruthless trainers on “The Biggest Loser” scream at the top of their freakin’ lungs at the contestants on the show.

Because the conversation that is going on inside of a fat person’s head is so persistent that the trainers are simply trying to force a new conversation into the stubborn brain.

Kind of like when the military uses loud rock and roll to mess with the concentration of the dictator they are trying to oust from their hide out.  These top-of-the-lung commands interrupt the habitual mental banter that has undermined the weight-loss success of the folks on the show.

It seems like J and B are angry. And if they were yelling at me, I’d want to stuff my fistful of Twinkies down their throats.  But when I step back, I can see that they are not yelling at the person.  They are really confronting the lies that have taken up residence. They’re yelling at the mental machinery that spits out mind-screwing sentences like: “You can’t do this.” “You’ll never make it.”  ”You’re not worth it.” and on and on and on…

I think I’m getting ready for someone to scream in my face because there are some false realities that need to be exchanged for the whole truth regarding my weight and worth.

Hmmm….should be interesting….

Freedom is coming.  I can feel it.